preparing for a new season.

so 2 weekends ago was the end of our 5 weeks of winter meltdown. this was our rescheduled winter meltdown from the one that was canceled back in feb. it was kind of weird having it when it was so warm outside, but it was certainly a positive for running outdoor activities. i even got to wear shorts and a tank top to run our field games and the zip line. it was middle school weekend, so the kids had a harder time focusing, but it was a great weekend nonetheless. on sunday of that weekend i got to meet my mom, her boyfriend scott, stephen, and sean in the inner harbor of baltimore to spend some quality time in the warm weather :) i am glad to have been able to spend time with my mommy. i love seeing her and it's no fun being away from her, but that's why we have phones :) we had a wonderful day of shopping and eating outside. then stephen, sean, and i went to watch our friend, Matt, play arena football in baltimore. we met his wife suzanne, who works at the cove as well, and got to eat dinner with them afterwords. just a wonderful day of connecting and building on relationships.

with the ending of winter meltdown season starts the spring session of our internship. we will now be planning for summer camp, our intern trip, and gearing up for the spring session of our outdoor education program.

last week really consisted of a whole bunch of cleaning. i mean a whole bunch. haha fort roller (where i will be for the summer) had to be cleaned for the open house, which was last weekend. the cabins hadn't been touched for 6 months.. i will let you use your imagination as to how much dirt was in those cabins and is now in my nose and lungs. haha. the cleaning was finished, so the lady interns and barb (our registrar at rvr) went on a trip to ocean city, md to recruit summer campers. it was a YFC conference with bands pillar and hawk nelson. it was super fun to get to go down to the beach and work with just girls :) kind of a little getaway even though it was for work. :) we ate some pretty good food, had some good conversations, and a lot of laughing.. us girls are good at that. we woke up pretty early and headed back to the ranch for the open house. the open house went really well and i was in charge of leading tours for fort roller. it was nice to work with large groups of people and get a sneak peak of what summer will be like.

now, i am sitting in my room at sandy cove at the beginning of my Easter break. i am so thankful we get breaks as interns. it is such a blessing to be able to spend time with the people we love, but are far away from. i've been thinking about my future and my life after the internship come august and i have many different plans i could take and many different doors i could go through and be happy doing, but i have realized in the past few years that all i really want to do is serve the Lord. it isn't about finding a place you love or about being somewhere that feels like home. i have found that home and doing what i love is serving the Lord no matter where i am. those 2 things fall into the same category of my desire to serve Him in whatever job i take. i don't know where i will be and i am not worried. i can say without a doubt that if i am following His leading and following the peace He has put in my life that i will be happy and doing what i want to do. i have tons of things i want to do in this life, but the one thing that will satisfy me and does satisfy me, is following Him and serving Him wherever i end up. nothing compares to His peace and so i will run hard after that and follow that peace because there is no greater feeling than knowing you are right where He wants you to be. and i don't mean where as in a place, but where as in where you are in following His path and not a path of location, but a path of serving and loving and following hard after Him in any place and in any job. so i lay it down. i trust You Lord for guidance. i trust my life and future is in Your hands. guide and lead me in these next steps of my life.

surrendering it all,

beth.